Though, on the surface, I have no reason to be. I have no idea what's going on with my mind (or my life) lately. I always feel like there's something else I should be doing! Something bigger and whatever I'm doing right now in my life just doesn't jive with my purpose in life.
My heart feels empty.
Sometimes I wonder if it's even there at all? I am terrified!
A heart without passion is akin to a broken compass that won't guide you to your destination. I feel as though I am not living my full potential because of it. With each mundane day, I throw on this hollow shell to greet the world. And I have been for the past 5 years. Only now I have become more and more aware of this state of lethargy in my life and it is insufferable.
There isn't enough conventions, video games or any kind of self-medicating could assuage my pain. I don't want to render it numb anymore! I have to face this! I need this pain to push me to the next chapter in life. Something that involves a purpose or direction would be nice. Thank you very much.
